Well, go ahead and slap me because I KNOW what I'm opening with will be frustrating to those 'banders still with little fill, and those who have experienced difficulty with their post-op.
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I've been a little angry, dissapointed and resentfull the past year and a half with my surgery, etc because I was still in such a loose state, but the last couple of fills over the past few months have brought me back to that good and hopeful state of mind again. When I chose this surgery I *KNEW* why I was choosing it, because I KNEW it was the slower, less permanant option. 6 months ago if someone had asked me if I regret choosing band over say full bypass, I MIGHT has said yes, very much so. But that would have been entirely premature. Yes I could be half my size and then some already just over two years out, but I could also have had gallbladder attacks and eventual removal, I could have hangy loose skin which I have avoided ANY trace of so far (minus the bat wings, because really who can NOT have a touch of batwings?) I could have ulcers and leakage and require infusions and have serious deficiancies, and all that. But these and for other reasons are why I chose the band. I knew it would take time, ACCEPTING that it takes time is the often challenging part.
So those who are new to their bands and are feeling lackluster in the success department, chin up and have hope, you will get there. I know how dissapointing it is to have a surgeon who is stingy with the fills, but I also know how it feels to have NEVER EVER had something stick, have to puke, have a dilitation of the band or need so much as a fluoroscope to see if it's still in proper place. It is, and will be worth it, just let yourself get there, slow and steady.